Flames of Truth Ministries
Monday, October 23, 2017
Lord, God Almighty you reign in majesty and glory and your holiness illumines all of the heavens. You are worthy of our praise and adoration. Because we are a sinful people, we can only see your holiness through the blood of your Son Jesus Christ. Precious Lord, allow us to see clearly through this lesson what the sacrifice on the cross meant and what our response must be in order to gain salvation that allows us to live eternally in heaven with you. Let the Holy Spirit speak TRUTH, YOUR TRUTH, to our hearts through the Word and help us to have wise discernment to understand the full intention of your Word as it is clearly written for us to understand and respond to.
Description of Heaven from selected verses in Revelation chapters 4 and 21:
                “And he who was sitting on the throne was like a jasper stone and a sardius in appearance and there was a rainbow around the throne, like an emerald in appearance… from the throne proceed flashes of lightning and sounds and peals of thunder…. Before the throne there was as it were a sea of glass like crystal;    the new Jerusalem has a great and high wall, with twelve gates, the wall of the city has twelve foundation stones, the material of the wall was jasper, and the city was pure gold and like clear glass, the foundation stones of the city wall were adorned with every kind of precious stone. The twelve gates were twelve pearls, each gate was a single pearl, the streets of the city were pure gold, like transparent glass. There was no temple, for the Lord God, the Almighty, and the Lamb are its temple, the city has no need for the sun or the moon to shine upon it for the glory of God has illumined it.”
                John gave the best description that he could give for a vision that was beyond and above anything his human mind could comprehend. Let’s try to get the best vision we can get. Every object we see, including the foundation, or ground, is made of pure gold and everything is covered with the finest of jewels. The gate to the city is pure pearl. The light and illumination comes directly from God.  There is no temple or church building for the living temple is there for us to worship. We will be standing around the throne that has lightning and thunder flashing forth from a backdrop of a rainbow of brilliance. We, with many others, will be worshiping our God. No crying, no pain, no cancer, no drug or alcohol abuse, no physical abuse, no emotional abuse, no hatred, no anger, no stealing, no killing, no adulterers, no selfishness, no depression, no indulgences – none of this will exist in Heaven. We will be in resurrected bodies worshiping before the throne of God. What a picture!!! Don’t you want to go right now!!
The Description of Hell – We have looked at Heaven and now we will look at hell because eternity for every human being that has lived before us, is now living or is yet to live, will be spent in one of the two places. There is no alternative choice so that is why this is so important for us to understand and make the right decision.
 Isaiah 33:14, “Sinners in Zion are terrified; trembling has seized the godless. Who among us can live with the consuming fire? Who among us can live with continual burning?”
Mark 9:43-44, “And if your hand causes you to stumble, cut it off; it is better for you to enter life crippled, than having your two hands, to go into hell, into the unquenchable fire, [where their worm does not die, and the fire is not quenched]”
Luke 16:23-24, “And in Hades he lifted up his eyes, being in torment, and saw Abraham far away, and Lazarus in his bosom. And he cried out and said, ‘Father Abraham, have mercy on me, and send Lazarus that he may dip the tip of his finger in water and cool off my tongue; for I am in agony in this flame.’”
Matthew 8:12, “but the sons of the kingdom shall be cast out into the outer darkness; in that place there shall be weeping and gnashing of teeth.”
2 Thessalonians 1:9, “And these will pay the penalty of eternal destruction, away from the presence of the Lord and from the glory of His power.”
Revelation 19:20, “And the beast was seized, and with him the false prophet who performed the signs in his presence, by which he deceived those who had received the mark of the beast and those who worshiped his image; these two were thrown alive into the lake of fire which burns with brimstone.”
Revelation 21:8, “But for the cowardly and unbelieving and abominable and murderers and immoral persons and sorcerers and idolaters and all liars, their part will be in the lake that burns with fire and brimstone, which is the second death.”
 Using the information from all of these verses we see that hell is a horrible place to even imagine. When we think about burning in hell, let’s consider what a burn is like. Have you ever burned your arm or any part of your body? The initial pain is bad but the lingering pain through the healing process can be extremely painful. Burns are so awful that they require special treatment and wound care and the skin from a burn cannot be completely healed without scarring. Anyone who has had significant burns lives with terrible scars. The suffering in hell will be constant. There will be no relief from the burning. Everyone there will be angry with gnashing teeth. The picture I see in this is rabid animals. Animals that are rabid are mad, crazy, beast-like. They bare their teeth in the attack mode. This is the picture of the humans in hell. The agony and anger and pain will be unrelenting for eternity. There will be no end to the suffering. Above all this, there will be eternal separation from God. There will be NO hope of change or help. Forever in torment separated from the only Hope of God.
Now we have two Biblically described places to spend eternity. There is no other choice. So I ask you the question – where do you want to spend eternity? It shouldn’t take you long to decide that you want to spend eternity in Heaven. So how do we get there?
John 3:16, “For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him, should not perish, but have eternal life.”
According to this verse, all I have to do is believe in Jesus. Do you believe that Jesus was real? Do you believe that He was a great teacher? Do you believe that He was the promised Messiah? Do you believe that He was the Son of God incarnate? Do you believe that He is God? Do you believe that He was the sacrifice on the cross for your sins? Well if we stopped here, then getting to heaven would  seem to be somewhat easy right?  We even have multitudes of preachers and teachers today that say just repeat after me and say this memorized prayer and that’s it, you’re saved. I have seen well-meaning, seemingly intelligent, preachers herd a group of children down the aisle at Vacation Bible Schools and report to the church that all have accepted Jesus and believe on Him. I have enough knowledge to know how to manipulate a group of preschoolers and have them repeat words after me so they could tell everyone they are going to heaven. One very personal experience that I have had with this is through my grandniece. She attended a VBS and the leaders called her mother and told her she had prayed the prayer of salvation and they wanted to baptize her that night. We all said no that we needed to question her further. As we very carefully encouraged her to share her experience without us guiding her speech, she told us they said pray this prayer and she did. She had no concept of salvation even though she believed that God is real and that Jesus is the Messiah. Oh how we need to be careful in how we handle the Word of God.   We have to take the whole counsel of the Word of God. 
James 2:19, “You believe that God is one. You do well; the demons also believe, and shudder.”
OH NO!! What do we do now? The Bible says that the demons also believe that God is God and they shudder. And we know from the full counsel of the Word that the demons will spend eternity in hell. So now what am I to believe?
Salvation, that gets us to heaven, is not a head knowledge belief that God exists and that Jesus is His Son who came to live on earth and who died on a cross and then returned to heaven. Satan, himself, believes and knows that God is God and that Jesus is the Son of God who came to live a life on earth and died on the cross and arose after the third day and returned to heaven and then sent the Holy Spirit to live within each of us who have given our lives to Him. We know Satan won’t be going to heaven – the Bible is very clear on that fact. So what’s the difference?
Let me give you another example – It is a scientific fact that my body needs water to live. I have learned about it in health class and I have read about it and studied about it as I have tried to learn about healthy living. I KNOW a lot about the need for water and the right kind of water to drink. All of this knowledge does me absolutely no good if I don’t drink the water. I must take the water into my body on a daily basis. Drinking water one day does not keep my body healthy. I must know and drink the water every day. As with God, I must first KNOW about Him and then I must take Him in through faith into my heart and I must feed my spiritual body with the Word every day. Knowing is just not enough to sustain me.
I must move from knowledge to REPENTANCE. 2 Chronicles 7:14, “if My people who are called by My name humble themselves and pray, and seek My face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.”
In this if/then statement, there are several actions clearly stated that we must do before God will hear and forgive. 1) humble ourselves,
2) pray,
3) seek God,
4) .turn away from our wicked ways There is action required on our part.
 Let’s first look at the definition of repentance as defined in the Holman Illustrated Bible Dictionary (1995, Nashville). Change of mind; also can refer to regret or remorse accompanying realization that wrong has been done or to any shift or reversal of thoughts. In its Biblical sense repentance refers to a deeply seated and thorough turning from self to God. It occurs when a radical turning to God takes place – an experience which God is recognized as the most important fact of one’s existence.
The Dictionary of Biblical Imagery, (1998, IVP, Illinois), gives us a great outline using Psalm 51 to teach us about true repentance.
Psalm 51:1-5, “Be gracious to me, O God, according to Thy lovingkindness; according to the greatness of Thy compassion blot out my transgressions. Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin. For I know my transgressions, and my sin is ever before me. Against Thee, Thee only, I have sinned. And done what is evil in Thy sight, so that Thou art justified when Thou dost speak, and blameless when Thou dost judge. Behold I was brought forth in iniquity, and in sin my mother conceived me.”
Step 1 to repentance is to recognize the wrongs we have done. Genuine repentance begins with a clear understanding of the wrong committed. We have to do an evaluation of our hearts and allow the Holy Spirit to show us the sins (wrongs) we have committed. We have to agree with God through the Holy Spirit that, yes, indeed, the actions or thoughts were/are sin. Isaiah 64:6, “For all of us have become like one who is unclean and all our righteous deeds are like filthy garments…”    We have to see us as God sees us to recognize our sins and how filthy it is to a Holy God.  Romans 3:23, “For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.” I John 1:8, “If we say that we have no sin, we are deceiving ourselves and the truth is not in us.”  No one that has ever lived or is living now or will live in the future will be without sin on this earth. The only exception to that statement is Jesus Christ who lived as all-God and all-man while He lived in human form on earth and He was without sin so that He could become our sacrifice.
Stop here and begin to write a list of sins in your life. Ask the Holy Spirit to reveal them to you and allow this to be an ongoing list so that as He reveals sin to you , you can write it down and deal with it, confessing it to God so that you can be cleansed from all your sin. Don’t know where to start, start with the Ten Commandments in Exodus 20, then go to Matthew 5-7 and look at the teachings of Jesus and see where you measure up and where there is sin. Here is an example of why you should go to both passages to evaluate the sin in your life. Exodus 20:13, “You shall not murder.”   This is the law of the Ten Commandments. In the New Testament, Jesus says that He came not to abolish the law of the Old Testament but to explain it and fulfill it. Matthew 5:21 explains further the law of ‘you shall not murder’. “You have heard that the ancients were told, ‘You shall not commit murder’ and ‘Whoever commits murder shall be liable to the court.’ But I say to you that everyone who is angry with his brother shall be guilty before the court; and whoever shall say to his brother, ‘Raca’(which means ‘empty headed’ or good for nothing’)  shall be guilty before the supreme court; and whoever shall say, ‘you fool’ shall be guilty enough to go into the fiery hell.” Jesus is teaching that we can murder someone’s character with our words. He teaches that murder of someone’s character  is just as wrong as taking someone’s physical life. When we get serious about seeing ourselves as Jesus sees us, then we will be ready to repent and seek forgiveness and redemption from God. Don’t just hit the high points; allow God to get into the deep dark crevices of your mind and heart.  It is important for us to remember here that sin is missing the mark that God set before us. It is not just what we are doing wrong but it is also what we know are requirements of God and not doing what is right. For instance, if God tells us to feed the hungry and we do nothing, even though doing nothing appears to others as we are doing nothing wrong, to God it is sin of disobedience.
Psalm 51:6-9, “Behold, Thou dost desire truth in the innermost being, and in the hidden part Thou wilt make me know wisdom. Purify me with hyssop, and I shall be clean; wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow. Make me to hear joy and gladness, let the bones which Thou hast broken rejoice. Hide Thy face from my sins, and blot out all my iniquities.”
Step 2 to repentance is cleansing sought with earnest grief. Once you become aware of sin, you should go through a period of wanting to become clean and to have your heart purified through the blood of Jesus. Hebrews 9:22 tells us that without the shedding of blood there is no forgiveness of sin. Ephesians 1:7 tells us that we have redemption through His blood.   During this part of repentance, we are seeking redemption, forgiveness of our sins. Through redemption and forgiveness we are cleaned. 
Let’s take a moment here to understand why the shedding of blood was necessary to cover our sins. Not very long after God created Adam and Eve, through the temptations of Satan and the weakness of Eve and Adam, sin entered the world. Genesis 3:21, “And the Lord God made garments of skin for Adam and his wife, and clothed them.” This was both a physical covering for their bodies as they had discovered their nakedness through sin and it was a spiritual covering for the sin. God took an innocent animal and shed its blood to cover the sin of Adam and Eve. The animal had nothing to do with the sin. We know that at that time the animal was perfect without stain and without deformity. For it to be a covering for Adam and Eve it had to die and its blood was shed.  God gave the law as stated in the book of Leviticus, He stated that an animal for sacrifice had to be perfect without blemish. He was telling man that he had to sacrifice the best that he had to atone for his sins. All of this was looking forward to what God Himself was going to do when He gave His very best, in His Son Jesus Christ, by sending His perfect Son, who was without sin, to die on an old rugged cross and shed His precious blood because of my sin and your sin. When I recognize my sin and seek cleansing and forgiveness, I need to clearly see my Savior suffering on the cross and allowing His blood to spill down that cross as a covering and sacrifice for my sin. According to Romans 6:23, “For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.” You and I deserve eternal death in a horrible hell. We deserve to be separated forever from God who is holy and perfect and full of grace and mercy. We can’t blame our sin away on our parents, our circumstances, our society or on Adam and Eve who were the first to sin. We have to take responsibility and admit our sinful condition. When we sin, we should feel a ping in our heart that resembles the ping of the hammer as it drove the nails through our precious Savior’s hands and feet as He shed His blood for us as a sacrifice to cover our sins.
Stop here and ask Him to forgive you of the list of sins that you wrote down. Lay your sins before Him and allow Him to be your sacrifice and allow Him to cover your sins with His blood. Tell Him you are sorry and ask Him to forgive and heal your heart.   Stand on the promise of I John 1:9, “If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”
Psalm 51:10-12, “Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me away from Thy presence, and do not take Thy Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of Thy salvation, and sustain me with a willing spirit.”
Step 3 – True repentance brings a new desire for God. If I have recognized my sin and earnestly sought after forgiveness from God then I will desire to be closer to God and I will long to be in His presence. The first two steps can be easy, especially if we are caught doing something wrong and then we want to be forgiven; but true repentance makes us long for God’s presence from which sin separates us. It is hard for most Americans to understand what longing really means. We say we are tired of waiting when we have been waiting for 10 minutes at a fast food restaurant. We want something for a couple of months and we say we are longing to have that item. True longing comes when we lose a loved one and we hurt deeply as we long to be in that person’s presence. That is the type of longing that we should have for God - to want to be in His presence more than anything else during the day or during the night. Isaiah 59:1-2, “Behold, the Lord’s hand is not so short that it cannot save; neither is His ear so dull that it cannot hear. But your iniquities have made a separation between you and your God, and your sins have hidden His face from you, so that He does not hear.” True repentance should bring us back to that place of longing to be in the presence of God. We recognize that sin separates us from God and prevents Him from hearing us when we cry out to Him. This understanding makes us long to be forgiven and we want to be in the presence and hearing of our holy God.
Psalm 51:13-15, “Then I will teach transgressors Thy ways, and sinners will be converted to Thee. Deliver me from blood-guiltiness, O God, Thou God of my salvation; then my tongue will joyfully sing of Thy righteousness. O Lord, open my lips, that my mouth may declare Thy praise.”
Step 4 – True repentance brings a changed action. Changed action is the most tangible demonstration of repentance – large strides in a new direction are the most sure sign that repentance has occurred (Dictionary of Biblical Imagery).   If true repentance has happened, then there is a changed action on our part. We have to see a change in our thought patterns and/or a change in our actions. If we say we repent and then keep doing the same thing then there has never been true repentance. I had someone in my life that would say ugly, hurtful things without thinking about what she was saying and then every time, after she had time to think about what she had said, she would come back and apologize. I finally told her not to come and apologize to me anymore because if she was truly sorry she would stop doing it.  She felt bad later and she was truly sorry at the moment when she said she was sorry, but she was never sorry enough to change her action.  If we are repentant there has to be change.
  A pastor friend of mine uses a great analogy to help us understand this concept of being forgiven and being saved and yet after salvation we will still sin and need daily forgiveness. Before we are saved through the grace and blood of Jesus Christ, we are on a road headed to hell. We don’t recognize our sin and we don’t care about Jesus or seeing ourselves through His eyes. When He comes to us and reveals our sins to us for the very first time and shows us how to have salvation through Him, He picks us up, turns us around and puts us on the road that leads to heaven. We are now going in a totally different direction. We will never get back on the old road. However, there are ditches and detours on our road that is leading us to heaven. When we sin after we are saved, it is like running off the road and getting stuck in the ditch. We need other Christians to come along beside us and help us get out of that ditch and put us back on the road that brings blessings and joy as we walk toward God. Sometimes, we go so far as to take a detour. We still are not back on the road headed to hell but we are on a detour that takes us away from the blessings and holiness of God. We have to pray and ask God to forgive us and put us back on the road of blessings and joy. When we ask for forgiveness, He is faithful to forgive and cleanse us from all unrighteousness and to pick us up and help us along our journey in life. There must be a changed action as a result from our repentance and forgiveness. If our repentance is genuine, we will not want to go back to that sin that separates us from God.
Romans 8:6, “For the mind set on the flesh is death, but the mind set on the Spirit is life and peace.” Let us set our mind on the Spirit through His Word to see what it teaches about repentance. We are going to use John the Baptist to better understand the message of repentance.
Luke 1:76-79, “And you, child, will be called the prophet of the Most High; for you will go on before the Lord to prepare His ways; to give to His people the knowledge of salvation by the forgiveness of their sins, because of the tender mercy of our God, with which the Sunrise from on high shall visit us, to shine upon those who sit in darkness and the shadow of death, to guide our feet into the way of peace.” This statement is from Zacharias, the father of John the Baptist. John the Baptist would be the forerunner of Jesus who would announce His coming. John would go before and make sure the people had knowledge of their sins and be ready to receive forgiveness from Jesus because of the mercy of God. Just as John the Baptist came to bring knowledge of sin and lead them to Christ, so the written Word of God does the same for us today. We must read the Word and listen to the prompting of the Spirit to identify our sins and to confess them before God and receive His forgiveness, whether this is the first time which leads to salvation or if this is daily cleansing from sin that keeps us in the presence of God.
Matthew 3:1-5, “Now in those days John the Baptist came, preaching in the wilderness of Judea, saying, ‘REPENT for the kingdom of heaven is at hand.’ For this is the one referred to by Isaiah the prophet, saying, ‘The voice of the one crying in the wilderness, make ready the way of the Lord, make His paths straight!’ Now John himself had a garment of camel’s hair, and a leather belt about his waist; and his food was locusts and wild honey. Then Jerusalem was going out to him, and all Judea, and all the district around the Jordan.” John was not your suit & tie kind of guy. He was like a wild man with a strong passion to preach repentance to the people. He was not preaching in the towns or in the synagogue, which was the church of that day. He knew that what was being preached in the synagogues was not the true message of God and unfortunately, we see way too much of that today. As he preached with passion, the people came out to him. They heard about his powerful message and came from all over to hear him and to receive his message. He made sure that in his preaching, he ALWAYS pointed the people to Jesus. There is no redemption or salvation through any other being or source except for Jesus Christ and Him crucified as a sacrifice for our sins. We have to make sure we get the name correct because names matter. Philippians 2:9-11, “Therefore also God highly exalted Him, and bestowed on Him the name which is above every name, that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of those who are in heaven, and on earth, and under the earth, and that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.” People will tell you that all gods are actually the same god just called by a different name. They will tell you that all philosophy is godly if it teaches us to love others. This is a bold face lie from Satan. Names matter!!! Start at the beginning of the Old Testament and continue throughout the New Testament and you will see that it was very important to God that you referred to Him by the correct name. Allah, Buddha, Muhammad, spirit guides, one consciousness, scientology, etc. – none of these have the power to forgive or save. You have to come through the name of Jesus Christ and Him alone. This is why John was so careful to point others to Christ- he didn’t want them to believe in him, only in Christ. The Word and the Holy Spirit will ALWAYS point you to Jesus Christ and Him crucified.
Luke 3:3-22, “And he came into all the district around the Jordan, preaching a baptism of repentance for the forgiveness of sins; as it is written in the book of the words of Isaiah the prophet, ‘The voice of one crying in the wilderness, make ready the way of the Lord, make His paths straight. Every ravine shall be filled up, and every mountain and hill shall be brought low; and the crooked shall become straight, and the rough roads smooth; and all flesh shall see the salvation of God.’ He therefore began saying to the multitudes who were going out to be baptized by him, ‘You brood of vipers, who warned you to flee from the wrath to come? Therefore bring forth fruits in keeping with repentance, and do not begin to say to yourselves, ‘We have Abraham for our father,’ for I say to you that God is able from these stones to raise up children to Abraham. And also the axe is already laid at the root of the trees; every tree therefore that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire. And the multitudes were questioning him, saying, ‘Then what shall we do?’ And he would answer and say to them, ‘Let the man who has two tunics share with him who has none; and let him who has food do likewise.’ And some tax-gatherers also came to be baptized, and they said to him, ‘Teacher, what shall we do?’ And he said to them, ‘Collect no more than what you have been ordered to.’ And some soldiers were questioning him, saying, ‘And what about us, what shall we do?’ And he said to them, ‘Do not take money from anyone by force, or accuse anyone falsely, and be content with your wages.’ Now while the people were in a state of expectation and all were wondering in their hearts about John, as to whether he might be the Christ, John answered and said to them all, ‘As for me, I baptize you with water; but One is coming who is mightier than I, and I am not fit to untie the thong of His sandals; He will baptize you with the Holy Spirit and fire. And His winnowing fork is in His hand to thoroughly clear His threshing floor, and to gather the wheat into His barn; but He will burn up the chaff with unquenchable fire.’ So with many other exhortations also he preached the gospel to the people. But when Herod the tetrarch was reproved by him on account of Herodias, his brother’s wife, and on account of all the wicked things which Herod had done, he added this also to them all, that he locked John up in prison. Now it came about when all the people were baptized, that Jesus also was baptized and while He was praying, heaven was opened and the Holy Spirit descended upon Him in bodily form like a dove and a voice came out of heaven, ‘Thou are My beloved Son, in Thee I am well-pleased.’”
Look carefully at what John did to those who came out to him. He showed them their sin and told them what change needed to occur. First he condemned those who came from the synagogues and called them a brood of vipers. He told them to bring forth fruit in accordance with repentance. He was telling them that if they had truly repented, there would be some different action on their parts taking place. But John knew there was no true repentance taking place in their hearts. He told them not to count on their heritage to save them. It doesn’t matter who your parents or grandparents were. That relationship cannot save you. You have to come on your own to God. He told the tax gathers to collect only the amount that they were supposed to collect. It was common practice in that day for tax collectors to collect more than was required and to keep it for themselves. They all did it. John said that it didn’t matter if everyone else was doing it, it was wrong and to truly repent, they must change their actions. He told the soldiers not to use brute force to take money or to lie about someone doing something. Again, this was common practice. All the soldiers abused their position of authority. John said that it didn’t matter if everyone else was doing it, it was wrong and they had to change their actions to be truly repentant. He even told King Herod that he was wrong for committing incest and adultery. That statement got John thrown into prison but he was simply telling the truth of God and he didn’t hold back even when facing a king. God says to us today, it doesn’t matter if everyone around you is doing whatever you are questioning. If God revealed it to you as sin, then you have to have a changed action in order to be truly repentant. If “everyone” else is reading those books, but God says it is not bringing Him glory, then you cannot read those books. If “everyone” else is watching those movies, but God has shown you that it is sin, then you cannot watch those movies. If “everyone” else is listening to that music, but God is revealing to you that it is wrong, then you cannot listen to that music. You will stand alone before God one day to answer for all that you do. “Everyone” else will not be standing there with you and God doesn’t take excuses of any kind. You choose what you will watch, read, listen to, participate in, turn away from or give in to. To be repentant and want to receive redemption and forgiveness, then there has to be a change on your part.
James 4:4, “You adulteresses, do you not know that friendship with the world is hostility toward God? Therefore whoever wishes to be a friend of the world makes himself an enemy of God.”
Ephesians 3:14-19, “For this reason, I bow my knees before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name, that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with power through His Spirit in the inner man; so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; and that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend will all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ which surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled up to all the fullness of God.”
Confess your sins to God, be repentant and ask for His forgiveness, then receive the power of the Holy Spirit and let your life show what God can do when we walk in the fullness of Him.
John 14:27, “Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you; not as the world gives, do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful.” 
Last thought – make sure you go to the Word to find forgiveness and peace. The world cannot give you the peace and power and strength and forgiveness that comes only through the Word and through the Holy Spirit living in you.